A few weeks ago, I was in the kitchen cooking…tossing seasonings in the pot like I was a Master Chef or like I was on Chopped! I am no where near chef worthy by the way, but I can do well enough to survive and even delight every once in a while! Anyway, I was running my mouth on the phone and lifted the big hole side of one of the seasonings instead of the small holes, and just like that, I might as well have been a contestant on the Worst Cook in America LOL! I poured instead of sprinkled, and as soon as it that seasoning poured out, I yelled “oh sh*t!” Don’t judge me, because I know you all have done it too, even if you didn’t use the colorful language!
Side Bar: When I was younger, I used to get in trouble for saying “Shoot” or “oh Shoot” so much, because my mama used to tell me that my “Shoot” was going to turn into “Sh*t”! Welllll, let’s just say that the old addage that says “Mama knows” is very true, and she was apparently right! Go figure!
Ok, back to the subject at hand! I poured when I should have sprinkled and practically ruined a dish that could have been divine the first time, simply because I was not as focused as I should have been. I took my eyes off the “proverbial” ball for a second, and in doing so, I messed up, but I laughed my behind off when it happened! Isn’t that how life happens sometimes? We turn away for one second and a tumble somehow turns into an avalanche; an avalanche that we sometimes think we will never free oursleves from. The fall bruises us, but the impact makes us feel like we’re breaking from the pressure we have somehow found ourselves beneath.
What are you talking about Scribe? I am talking about the mistakes that result in mishaps and lead to misteps. I am talking about the decisions we make when we feel like we have no other choices? I am talking about the damage done when people we trust, prove to be the very thing we never needed, and I am not talking solely about romantic relationships, I’m talking about any and all of ’em, because some of the other ones hurt far more.
Broken trust in any situation leaves you reeling and wondering how you missed it! But what about when you break trust with yourself simply because you found yourself in places and spaces you should have never been in in the first place? Sometimes those places are professional and sometimes they’re personal, but regardless of the space you found yourself in, guess what? Just as sure as there was an entrance, if we just find an inkling of courage to turn slightly, slowly, or swiftly (whatever works), we can find a crack in the debris from that avalanche to make an exit. But we will only see the light from that crack, when when we are ready to free ourselves from being crushed by the pressure that we may have inherited, received, borrowed, or inflicted upon ourselves.
Sometimes the pressure we feel is from the weight we put on ourselves and the expectations we think others have of us. Sometimes we feel like we are drowning with no possibility of resuscitation, but I know that the resuscitation is inevitable. You wanna know how I know! I know because my oldest niece told me yearsssss ago when we were at a waterpark. I, in all of my genius, stood at the foot of a waterslide to catch one of my smaller nieces. Well, when she came out, she shot down the bullet (feet first of course) and knocked me off my feet! As I result, I fell backwards and proceeded to flail and act a plumb fool because in my mind, I was drowning. Not one lifeguard came to help. They were likely in disbelief as I put my dramatics on display. As I continued to flail and panic, my oldest niece snatched my youngest niece at the time and said, “Auntie, stand up”….yall, the water was barely above my ankles. Water feels a whole lot more life threatening when we are swallowing it instead of treading it! Much like our problems, we magnify them to a point where we think we will never recover and sometimes it leaves us stuck. I am talking to you, but I am also guilty. Don’t get me wrong, they are real, but so are we and the best way to stop flailing is to STAND UP and see that there is a better way! The best way to climb out from under that avalanche is to set your sight on the glimmer of light from the crack, turn toward it, and start digging yourself out so that you can STAND UP!
I will never ever diminish anyone’s issues because we all have them. I know that I know that I know I do! LOL! So when I say SH!T happens, know that I am saying it with the understanding that there is a benefit in all of the manure that may have been sprinkled; perhaps fertilization (smile…that was either funny or gross). It is all a process, and a lot of times it’s hard to trust what you’re not comfortable yielding to, but a little faith helps with that! We have to go through to get through, and man when we come through…look out world! We may not laugh at the brokeness right way, but I promise we will discover a reason to chuckle in the midst of the rebuild! You got this! We got this!
Oh, by the way, I simply re-adjusted my dish! Notice I said, I practically ruinedit! Practically doesn’t mean completely! Just like our mistakes, mishaps, and misteps…we are going to make them and they are going to happen, but they will never completely ruin us. We just have to re-adjust for the repair!!!!
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